new theme

not entirely satisfied with it yet

the code is incredibly convoluted but I’m working on it

for now though I need to study chemistry

uhhh just thought I’d let everyone know that I am embarking on a temporary-but-hopefully-with-long-lasting-good-habits vegan and gluten-free forgive-me-body-for-eating-nothing-but-pizza-for-a-month diet

I’m also considering buying a pass to weekly fitness classes at the rec center because I want to do something other than biking 

health?? fitness?? summer body?? what do

ARRIGHT I AM SO SO SO DONE WITH DRUNK PEOPLE RIGHT NOW

IT’S FINE TO BE A LIL YOUNG’N AND NOT KNOW YOUR ALCOHOLIC LIMITS

BUT IF YOU ARE A COLLEGE GRADUATE AND STILL DRINKING UNTIL YOU THROW UP IN OTHER PEOPLE’S HOUSES

YOU NEED TO REEVALUATE YOUR LIFE

REALLY

BADLY

I am having an incredibly difficult time being inspired about anything lately. all I want to do is ride my bike. away from everything. forever. 

YO I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I AM REALLY HAPPY TO HAVE STUMBLED UPON PEOPLE WHO ACTIVELY LIKE ME AND TELL ME THAT THEY LIKE ME BECAUSE BEING AROUND PEOPLE WHO ARE JUST LIKE ‘YEAH SHE’S ALL RIGHT’ AND HAVING LITTLE TO NO VERBAL AFFIRMATION IS REALLY HARD FOR ME AFTER A WHILE SO SHOUTOUT TO THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE AWESOME AND THINK I’M AWESOME AND AREN’T AFRAID TO SAY SO I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU

I have been asleep since 4 and I cannot get up

washing my hair with foamy hand soap in the science building before class

day 3 of utilities shutoff… how long can the residents of SIN SOUP survive without heat, water, showers, or an oven?

suddenly,

3 am.

I wish I were a good poet so I could write about things I feel without then feeling like an idiot

I ended up spending three hours reading food blogs and scientific papers… 

HA HA NEVERMIND

LET ME GET SUPER RANDOMLY PARANOID ABOUT THE INFORMATION AVAILABLE ABOUT ME ON THE INTERNET AND ALSO EDIT MY RESUME

well

it has reached the point in the night where my dash has no new posts on it

meaning I can no longer put off studying math.

for a long time I have been stress and anger and depression and bad-chemical free

but end of the quarter/dead week/finals is bringing it all out again

and I am actually quite frightened at how full of hatred and violence I am.

I cannot do anything without making myself bleed